Sunday, March 11, 2018

Brielle Turns FIVE

Brielle turned 5 the end of January. What a joy to celebrate her!



Brielle has a sweetheart personality. She is my quietest child, and she also has a big heart of compassion. She runs to help anyone who gets hurt, and she dislikes when people are unhappy, so she nearly always accommodates them, even if it means giving up something she wanted. She is very motherly. It is always hard for me to say what her favorite things are, but truly, I think that's because her favorite thing is people. She loves people, and she always wants to be with them. She wants to do whatever the people around her want to do, because that's what makes her happy. 


Funny/Sweet Things:
- "I'm going to get a soup and a cracker for you for Mother's Day and a chocolate for daddy for Mother's Day." (yes, she said mother's day both times haha!)
- "You're anking my hair!" 
- "Grandma, your fridge is sinking again!" (she meant leaking haha!)
- "We're going to cut up the chubbiest watermelon."
- Whenever she has the hiccups, she says, "I have the hook ups!"
- After burping, she told me, "My stomach doesn't hurt anymore now that I got my excuse out of my throat."
- "Mommy, I'm going to live with you forever."


Development:
We don't do any formal pre school work. She has learned how to write her whole name now, simply from seeing me write it. She also can write all of her sisters' names and mom, dad, and Ben. When we read stories and she sees two of the same word on a page, she always asks me what the word is. It's been a joy to watch her learn, as I haven't pushed anything. It's incredible to see how their own curiosity pushes them to ask questions and discover learning.


Birthday:
For her birthday, I decided to do things a little differently. She loves people, and she especially loves all her extended family. But I didn't really feel like planning a birthday party. I decided, instead, that we would visit all of her family members on her birthday! We began our day by opening gifts at breakfast. At lunchtime, we went to her favorite restaurant to eat, and then we started our rounds. We first visited Aunt Nikki at the bank. I asked each of the family members to forego gifts but to get her a balloon. I thought it would be fun for her to have a bouquet of balloons at the end of the day. After visiting Aunt Nikki and getting her balloon, we went on to visit Aunt Brianna and Aunt Brittany at their jobs, and then we went to my mom's house, where she got to see all her cousins whom my mom was babysitting. We sang to her there, and we cut and ate her cake. After that, we went to visit Uncle Nate and Aunt Kelly and cousins at their house. We ended our day at her other grandparents' house with dinner and her final balloon (and some flowers!). It was a really fun (but long!) day, and Brielle really enjoyed all of the special attention.

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Loves: family, her blanky, eating, taking care of her little sisters, making people happy

Dislikes: being left out, saying good byes


Interview:
What's your favorite food? Apples and bananas
What's your favorite thing to play with? My bow and arrow that I got for my birthday
What's your favorite movie or show? My favorite show is Puffin Rock. My favorite movie is Little House on the Prairie 
What's your favorite song? Away in a manger
What"s your favorite verse? The Lord is my shepherd
What's your favorite book? The Going to Bed Book
What's your favorite color? Yellow, like my Mommy
What's your favorite Bible story? The ten men went to Jesus because they were really sick, for Jesus to heal them. One man went back to Jesus to thank him for healing them.
What do you like to do with Sophie? My favorite thing to do is to play house.
What do you like to do with Lyla? Jump on the couches and the bed and to take the pillow cushions off
What do you like to do with Violet? Play house
What do you like to do with Daddy and Mommy? I like to hug Mommy and Dada
What do you want to do when you get older? Get a phone
Okay, what do you want to BE when you get older? I want to be a vet
What's your favorite animal? Kitties and goats and all the animals in the world
Who are your best friends? Emma and Jaeda and Khloe and Bowen 
What makes you happy? Watching a movie and playing
What makes you sad? When someone throws something at me
What are you really good at? Doing my bow and arrow

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31 comments:

  1. Hi, I'm Missy. I haven't said much to you yet. I teared up a few times during this post, simple and beautiful. I love the way you take a moment to focus on your children. I love the warm and simple whites in the style of your home. This inspires me to write down what my kids say more often. I don't know much about your back story yet, but I have 4 kiddos so when I get a sec I look at your Insta page. Found you through Charlotte mason etc. Thanks for sharing this.

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    1. Thank you for the note <3 I do these posts because I love having them for my own record, but I always love hearing that others enjoy them too! I don't find time to write down as much as I used to... but I try to still do it as much as possible because I know older me will be so glad I did! Four kids makes these days go so fast, huh?! Thanks for reaching out and saying hi!

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  2. This is a lovely baby girl. Its smile is going to fascinate everyone. Keep sharing the nice post. Remove Black Magic Expert in Dehradun

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  3. So pushy questions... You shared last week about you and j never making out, made it sound like it's always been that way since '14. But when we first started talking again that you talked like you had sex often (like you literally told me about every 2-3 nights... I remember... bc it was a bit much for me to think about considering we were too...) and said she was a good kisser and made it sound like it was pretty decent. Do you think that it's gotten worse since you've been seeing me? Or do you think when you're flying that you just have a different perspective on everything? I think sometimes since you're so in the moment that it worries me that you like forget that it was decent before... and that like I've just changed it all. Like I don't doubt that you had depression and real struggles before with j, but sometimes it feels to me like I've majorly made it all worse, and like maybe you forget that it was decent before.

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    1. I hate saying it since you dont like me saying it, but my jealous side just sees you finding someone awesome and wishing i wouldnt have been a part of your life but that you couldve found said guy in high school and spent your whole life with him. Just me being a little bish, though...

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    2. Well I’m just saying, I don’t think there are that many guys around here who are like me. Like most people here are very blue or hillbilly or think we should bomb everyone or think America is God ... and there’s no way in hell I would let any of those guys touch me.

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    3. Mmm, so you would move away?

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    4. Um, I have kids ;) And I’m not going to go looking for someone...

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    5. I dont like this convo...i feel like im trying to have everything. Like i want you to have a great life but im sad if you find someone great. Im just pausing this and saying im sorry. Sorry that i am jealous for you. That i will wish my whole life that i wouldve kept you...but that i want you to find what you are looking for. I think this break will help that make more sense. It is needed though i hate it. All that to say, you are right...as usual;)

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    6. I agree that I don’t like this convo. All I know right now is that I love you and I can’t imagine loving another the way I love you.

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    7. Ok, lets bail on it;) so i really want to press j on the sexual stuff. Like, the disconnectedness. But i think she will go to the affair possibilty. I wouldnt want to deny it. So i think on our "break" i could bring it up and then if she asks about if im having an affair i can honestly say no. What i think is likely is that she will say we need counseling (hasnt helped yet because she thinks she has done all that she can given the situation i forced on her--i.e. affiar, texting ash, making love to your mom). At the very least she could say, yeah, youre right. We arent connected. We cant go to missions. Lets spend the rest of our lives trying to survive this marriage. That will be our new goal. Survival. I dont think i can handle that.

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  4. Well, f A. Bad news. B played b-ball this morning and just called me that he tore his Achilles. Surgery tomorrow and off work for 8 weeks. So that means there isn’t any way to see you in the next 8 weeks. At least not here, and cars suck, esp in winter. I guess the decision was made for us. But it also means I’m stuck with b here for 8 weeks. I feel so anxious.

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    1. Just like that.

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    2. Yeah, slow processor girl so I can’t quite wrap my head around it yet. I think just like that is probably the only way we know how to end. But “just like that” also pisses me off. I hate not knowing it’s going to be our last time. And I have your orange slices. And I was going to force you to take me where the colors blend.

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    3. Yeah. Just assure me that i can talk to you again...in feb...

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    4. Damn A... we have to think about this and make decisions about what our future plans are... how exactly we’re ending this and when... I can’t do it at this second but I’ll think about it throughout the day.

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    5. And A, you cant know how this hurts my heart. But i think youre right on this is what we need. Im only ok qith knowing you enjoyed last time...i just cant think of it as the last time...rememeber when i said id kiss you again...well, this time ill say ill blend our colors again...are you ok with that?

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    6. So I think honestly that’s the main reason I can’t ever see b and I working out. Like, I can’t ever even really think about how to even find love for him when I know you can show up in my life at any time again and that you love me and you’re alive...

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    7. And I’m sorry. It hurts my heart too.my heart feels squeezed right now.

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    8. Now ill try to drown my sorrows. But i always wonder if i shouldnt have taught them how to swim.

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    9. Well A, that makes me want to set you free. Worst case (in my mind)is you leaving b and me surviving in missions always knowing i fucked up your heart...dying someday knowing i wrecked you...

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    10. That i wrecked the woman that loved me...

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    11. Well I wish you’d just stop loving me if you’re going to move on... that’s probably the only way I can really move on... if you stop loving me...

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    12. And divorce doesn’t feel like “being wrecked” to me. Living a fake life my whole life does. That’s worse case scenario to me. Pretending just to keep everyone happy.

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    13. Chicken or egg, A. I love you because you love me. I love you deeply. Didnt know how to stop after '14, still dont. Not that i wont, it feels like i dont have a choice. Like telling matts son to stop liking guys. Feels the same depth. Cant explain it. The blue culture around me will never accept the answer. B will never accept it. He may kill me to stop me. Im thinking thats when ill stop, A. Unless i can love you from the next life...

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    14. Yeah, i dont want you pretending your whole life. I dont want you feeling used by b because you "should" have sex with him. I just dont know if i can actually not pretend my whole life. My dad did, you know. In deep ways...some nights i feel like i wont ever have the courage to do any different.

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    15. Yeah... the difference is I don’t think he pretended his whole life, he just hid a bunch. So I’m sure you could hide stuff your whole life. I don’t know if you can pretend. And I don’t know if you can actually not talk to me when you know I love you and have the ability. I would say the whole “crux” of your life depends on that.... and which is what I’m hoping breaking up will give you clarity about.

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    16. Id agree with that. The pretending is killing me. Like fake smile all day at church. Dying inside until someone starts talking about being authentic...about real pain and difficulty that grace covers...my heart is drawn to that. J just is thinking the whole time...we are going to be late to pick up the kids...a, i dont know if incan not reaxh out to you. Like, i want to know how the 8 weeks goes...you know?

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    17. My heart is drawn to the same thing. It was such a drastic difference between the conversation I had with my cousins roommate on sat night and the conversations with old life group members last night. One definitely felt like it gave life and held freedom and other felt so fake and forced and like it was full of expectations.
      And I know... I don’t know either of us can keep from reaching out. It’s so different when we *know* the love and trust we have is real ... and that we’re not doing well in our marriages

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    18. So do you have a plan? Too early to think through it? As far as comments...that is. I think i need you to establish it. Mine will be to make love with you the next time it is possible. But i do like my style, i must say...but im afraid yours is too realistic for me. Whatever it ends up being;)

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